Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to... oh damnit

I start back to work a week from today. My maternity leave is coming to an end and I am less than thrilled about it, to say the least. I'm trying to be positive, but it's hard. It feels completely wrong to be leaving my 2 month old baby to go sit in a cubicle. Luckily, I was able to negotiate a schedule where I work partially from home, which eases the blow, but doesn't keep me from taking the brunt of the hit. At least there's that.

What's stressing me out also is that we found out this weekend we have to move. Our landlord needs our apartment for her mother (father passed away, mom can't live alone, very sad story) and we need to find another place to live. We have a good amount of time - our lease isn't up until December - but the sooner, the better for all parties involved. We absolutely adore our home - it's not just some random apartment, this is our home and has been for 3 years now.

We're going to meet a broker this afternoon and see a few places, but my hopes are not high. I need to get into a better frame of mind and I need to do it quickly. My attitude right now feels terrible and I really want to shake this negativity.

One last thing - I stupidly ate alfredo sauce last night and Jude has a cow's milk allergy. I can't believe I ate it and didn't even think about the cream in it. So stupid! No wonder the poor thing was up every hour last night. He must have felt awful! Nothing like realizing you're the cause of your child's discomfort. Way to go, momma. Sheesh.